Casual wasn't something that wolves did, or at least, Freya didn't think so. She was so far out of her depth. She griped silently at words and felt the flood of questions rush through her head. She felt them constrict her breathing as she forced air through her lungs.
"Thorfinn." His name sounded so sweet and so pained. "I-" She had to look away from him and down towards the space between them. Her head and her heart conflicted. She'd be honest because it was Thorfinn, she refused to lie to him and even if she was scared, she'd try her best. "I want to." She looked back into his gaze. "I really want to be with you but-" She wished she could stop her fingers from shaking. She gripped behind his neck and his hand a little more firmly hoping it might steady her.
"There is so much I don't know. I don't know how any of this works or what it means. I've watched humans fall in and out of love. What if you do and I don't? What if a wolf shows up and instinct tells me to do one thing while my heart tells me to do something else?" Freya knew that no matter what happened Thorfinn would have her heart. He'd managed to secure it without her even knowing and now she feared what might happen if it broke. "What if you leave? What if you forget me? What if someone doesn't agree with you or us?" She felt her voice choke and her eyes close to stop herself from crying. She felt so lost, so blind and she didn't know what to do. To many feelings rose and clashed inside of her.
It was over whelming for someone who's tried so hard not to feel.
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Date: 2017-01-03 03:36 pm (UTC)"Thorfinn." His name sounded so sweet and so pained. "I-" She had to look away from him and down towards the space between them. Her head and her heart conflicted. She'd be honest because it was Thorfinn, she refused to lie to him and even if she was scared, she'd try her best. "I want to." She looked back into his gaze. "I really want to be with you but-" She wished she could stop her fingers from shaking. She gripped behind his neck and his hand a little more firmly hoping it might steady her.
"There is so much I don't know. I don't know how any of this works or what it means. I've watched humans fall in and out of love. What if you do and I don't? What if a wolf shows up and instinct tells me to do one thing while my heart tells me to do something else?" Freya knew that no matter what happened Thorfinn would have her heart. He'd managed to secure it without her even knowing and now she feared what might happen if it broke. "What if you leave? What if you forget me? What if someone doesn't agree with you or us?" She felt her voice choke and her eyes close to stop herself from crying. She felt so lost, so blind and she didn't know what to do. To many feelings rose and clashed inside of her.
It was over whelming for someone who's tried so hard not to feel.